I have been extremely fortunate to have reconnected with old friends in the last week. First, a former group fitness class student attended one of my yoga classes. I am not going to lie, this made me really nervous. A kind of nervous that I haven't felt teaching yoga in a very long time. It was a small voice telling me "they are going to think you are so weird and out there now" or that I would come across as hippie-dippy.
Obviously, these fears proved to be absolute nonsense. My friend loved the class and was exceptionally supportive. And I had to sit with myself to think about where the self-doubt was coming from and why imposter syndrome was rearing its ugly head again.
Later in the week, I reconnected with a group of friends from my time in AmeriCorps VISTA. I am always inspired by these friends and the amazing community advocates they have become. Among this group though, I again feel the self-doubt begin to creep in. I begin to wonder if I should be doing more advocacy or policy-based work. How did I end up in a yoga studio full time when I wanted to change communities?
But the thing is, I am changing my community in the work I am doing. And none of the friends I spent time with were questioning my path. They were all supportive and kind. I have been reflecting on turning 30 and how I feel about it. I thought that this age would bring me a sense of self-esteem and respect. And yet, my age didn't keep me from worrying or doubting or whatever. I have to face up to being myself in this life and trusting my path.
When the student is ready, the teacher appears. And I am so grateful for the teachers that my friends have been for me this week (whether they realized it or not)!